Restart - I choose to live, before I die.

This will be a very short entry.

I just want to remember this feeling, after burning my bridges to the safe side of life.

Right now, with this heavy crisis going on, I have no job, no money, with a debt to pay and facing a future with an equally jobless husband by my side and our 3 hungry cats.

The safe side of my life would have been having a secure income every month, in exchange for keeping a job I hated and is starting to make me fat (stress-eating, stress-sleeping, the whole lot).

But hell, I'm only going to live once. Staying on the safe side was slowly but surely and painfully dragging me to a very lonely grave.

So I decided I didn't like the safe side anymore. There's just no satisfaction in knowing I'm wasting the Universe's most precious gift to me.Choice.

I choose to live, before I die.

If we're all gonna end up dead anyway, I'd rather see myself digging my own grave, whistling a merry tune because I'm free, than singing lament songs about how many things I wanted to do and didn't...because I listened to common sense telling me to stay on the safe side.

So now I'm ready for a new beginning.

I actually like this feeling right now. A bit worried but excited, tense but also never been quite sure I have made a right decision, and yes, free. I have never felt so free in years...

This feeling of freedom is so intoxicating and invigorating that I want to keep it.

And I will keep it.