I just want to share this song. Made me feel a lot better and so confident. 

Life maybe a battlefield but I know we can manage. 

We have so much to fight for!

SIGE LANG

by Quest

Eto nanaman tayo bagong simula
Huminga ng malalim alisin ang kaba
Tapos na ang kahapon, pwede nang itapon
Huwag lang ang mga aral dapat yan ay ibaon
Katulong mo sa panibagong hamon
May paparating na bagong alon
Pwede kang lamunin o pwede mong sabayan
Yung aral ng kahapon pwede ka nyang gabayan
Kung ako sayo tumayo ka na dyan
Huwag ka nang magpahuli kami ay sundan
Patungo sa liwanag, aabutin ang tala
Pagkatapos pakita sa mundo pusong nagbabaga
Upang lahat ay mamulat, sa aking susulat
Parinig sa lahat ang aking iuulat
Huwag ka nang mabahala ako ang bahala
kasangga natin si Bathala

Walang imposible
Sige lang ng sige
Abot mo ang mundo
malapit o malayo
Sama sama tayo
Hanggang sa dulo
ano man ang pagsubok
Hindi susuko
Alam kong kaya mo
Sige lang sige
Sige lang sige
Walang imposible

Nagniningning
Ang pangarap ng yong pusong
Humihiling
Na makalimutan ang kahapon
Sanay dinggin
Sigaw ng aking puso
Hindi sumusuko, hindi to susuko

Ilabas ang yong pangarap
Huwag mo yang itatago
Samahan mo ng sipag at tatag ng puso
Tumayo ko sa yong silya
Ikaw ngayon ang bida
Wala nang pipigil pa eto na eto na

Hanggat ako’y humihinga
Sugod lang laban pa
Pangarap abutin
Kumislap tulad ng mga bituin
Sige lang, di ka nagiisa
Sige lang sige pa

Restart - I choose to live, before I die.

This will be a very short entry.

I just want to remember this feeling, after burning my bridges to the safe side of life.

Right now, with this heavy crisis going on, I have no job, no money, with a debt to pay and facing a future with an equally jobless husband by my side and our 3 hungry cats.

The safe side of my life would have been having a secure income every month, in exchange for keeping a job I hated and is starting to make me fat (stress-eating, stress-sleeping, the whole lot).

But hell, I'm only going to live once. Staying on the safe side was slowly but surely and painfully dragging me to a very lonely grave.

So I decided I didn't like the safe side anymore. There's just no satisfaction in knowing I'm wasting the Universe's most precious gift to me.Choice.

I choose to live, before I die.

If we're all gonna end up dead anyway, I'd rather see myself digging my own grave, whistling a merry tune because I'm free, than singing lament songs about how many things I wanted to do and didn't...because I listened to common sense telling me to stay on the safe side.

So now I'm ready for a new beginning.

I actually like this feeling right now. A bit worried but excited, tense but also never been quite sure I have made a right decision, and yes, free. I have never felt so free in years...

This feeling of freedom is so intoxicating and invigorating that I want to keep it.

And I will keep it.